Karmic Understanding

I believe that what is elemental is invisible to the eye and thus only with the heart, can a person truly see.

We all start life as part of something other than ourselves. We are an awareness.

Our physical bodies are made from the genetic material of our parents; But where does our animating spirit come from?

I’m not going to pretend that I know the answers. What I do know is that there is a greater truth than any one of us can put into words, a truth that each of us knows intuitively and innately: We are part of something bigger than ourselves.

We are all on an eternal journey and each individual lifetime is only a temporary stage in our progress.

Before we were born, we lived. After we die, our spirits continue to learn and grow. When we pass over, in the moment of our death, our life flashes before our eyes - like a movie reel. We see our thoughts and deeds through the eyes of truth and goodness. We see what we have learned as well as the lessons we have failed to learn.

Each lifetime is an opportunity either to move higher or to create karma that must be cleared before the soul can progress.

Clearing energy or rather, healing distorted energy is a major task. Some of it is cleared away by angelic beings or empowered individuals who ensure it does not become overwhelming - but most of it we need to deal with ourselves.

We create it and perpetuate it.

Its obvious that in todays culture there is a natural tendency to want to rise above negativity. And I completely get it. Who wants to engage in it? It’s painful.

But if we simply reject it to go “into the light” - if we reject those difficult parts of us that we call our “ego,” our “shadow” our “darkness” our “lesser self” our “personality” - where does that rejected material go?

It goes into the collective unconscious of humanity. It becomes part of this scream we can all sense. It’s why the majority of our society is depressed, anxious, acting out of fear, not sleeping, medicated, addicted… we are all separated and running from something - rather we want to admit it, acknowledge or see it. It is there. It exist.

We deserve to face this energy and transform it through our love and through our willingness to be fully human, fully present to life on this level.

In truth, We are at a point on the wheel of time where what we don’t know can kill us. What we don’t know is right around the corner, waiting to swallow us whole. We cannot indulge in the arrogance of what we think we know. What we think we know is largely irrelevant and in fact demonstrably not working very well.

What we don’t know is a universe so vast … we cannot even fathom. We need to move directly to the means of finding out what we need to know to make a difference with ourselves and the world and how to apply that knowledge.

I have been staring at myself - staring right into all the hidden aspects I never disclose - the aspects I deny and have rejected… I want to understand how certain things have come to be in my existence. I want to understand the karmic lessons I keep circling in and out of with different people. I want to understand why this life has left me fending for peace in the most savage of environments.

I want to understand my choices, my function…

I look to the relationships in my life to help me understand the world. If you were to take my astrology chart and fan it out across the table, you would soon see that all I am is a suppository of relations; from familial, friends, lovers, strangers and so on. My entire soul journey this round is centered on relationships.

Some peoples journey is on discovering what makes them happy, some are focused on producing art and wonder, others are about generating abundance, some are steeped in travel, or disseminating order and justice - there are many points of focus we humans come here designed with.

In fact, my entire design is about bringing relationships to completion. I have met so many healers, friends and lovers where we KNOW there is a force between us that cannot be explained; a pull so strong that we can be 3000 miles from one another and summon one another from just a simple thought.

When I meet these people, I crave to sit at their feet to know who they are in this life. I want to be involved in their essence because inside of these individuals is a greater sense of home, connection and love I can almost touch.

When we keep running from ourselves, our truth, our purpose - we lose out. And we deny healing the karmic lessons we came here for, thus perpetuating pain in our lives, which makes us return back to the circus we call life.

I will be straight forward with you.

I am not trying to return to these lower lands of Earth - EVER AGAIN!

This is my last round. I am tapping out of the reincarnation wheel. I want to call in whomever I am to reach and resolve the hidden quandaries of our lives.

I want to be an effective way faring stranger. No matter how much time I am allowed in another persons tapestry, I want to weave my thread of love, kindness, forgiveness, compassion, empathy, joy and grace. And then, when its time, I want to leave people better than I found them.

I am reckoning within myself how fleeting my presence is. My role is temporary. I am a seasonal love in this life. Seeing with my heart has given me this gift of awareness. It is essential that we all become aware of that invisible thread that ties us together. Because perhaps if we recognize the pattern we create (good or bad) then maybe - just maybe we will tend to one another with more humility and adoration.

If you feel you are someone that I have karmic energy with, please come forward. Because like I said… I am on a mission to heal and release. Be brave and let us create peace. There is no need to harvest pain when I offer love.

So be that.

And so it is.

Aho! Ase! Haux!